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How has your life been these past few weeks?

Has your world been shattered into millions of pieces?

Have you come to the True and Accurate realization that the government and its judicial systems were not created for you?

Have you watched the country of your birth reject you and force you to face up that you are entirely worthless and not worthy of even the air you breathe?

Did you have to go to work, face the world, your neighbors, your daily life with a mask on your face and armor surrounding your heart each and every day since?


Did the president’s words raise your spirits yet make you weep inside because even he was shackled by circumstance and could not say everything he wanted to say?

Do you doubly fear for the Black males and yes even the Black females in your life?

Do you wonder if your Black child will make it back home safely each time he steps outside that door?

Did you march? Have you cried? Did you write? Did you petition? Did you protest?

Has the fabric of your everyday existence changed in any way over the past few weeks?

Did you find out some startling things about the “friends” on your Facebook and your Twitter and your Real Life?

Did you ever lose track of the fact that a child is dead, murdered and went on trial for his life and got no justice? Does it haunt your dreams at night?

Do you have that helpless feeling in the pit of your stomach?


All this and more and yet you had to keep breathing, keep walking, keep working, keep doing, keep stepping, keep that mask plastered on your face, bite your tongue, hide your true feelings because the world around suddenly showed its True Face and you realized that even more loss would rain down upon you and yours if you showed any emotion.

What happens next?

How are you going to live your life?

Did you check in with those of color in your life and showed your simple support by just a kind word, a gesture, an offering to spend time or just simple Let Them Know that you are there for them?


Is this the America you want to live in? Raise your kids in?

Things will only get worse if action is not taken. Silence equals consent. Inaction renders you part of the problem. Stand up. Speak up.

Combat injustice, racism, hatred, misogyny, discrimination, bigotry each and every time they rear their ugly heads in your life.

You live in America. These things touch your life each and every day. Begin to notice them. Speak out. Stand up. Stop the madness.

How Have YOU Been These Past Few Weeks?


To whom it may concern,

I write elsewhere, and have been for sometime, as you probably could have told from my lack of new posts. I do so because I needed a different space to tackle different problems. I write here today because the world has changed, or rather it has been the same, I’ve only lately – past 6 or 8 months – let myself realize the hard truth of how the world actually is. These past few weeks were the clincher.

I had to speak up.

Living well, teaching your children well, and being a good person simply isn’t enough anymore.

Do what you can. When and where you can. Be a part of the solution.

Stand up. Speak up. Take action. No matter how large or small. Do something.


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Happy New Era!


The New Year is a special time for Buddhists of my ilk, but this year I had bigger fish to fry as you can see from my previous post. So midnight last night came and went with only wince or two at the local rednecks who keep confusing firecrackers with firearms. Did they not see that After School Special on firing bullets into the air? What comes up must come down. Somewhere. But I digress.

I’m always glad when the holiday season is over. As a person born and raised a Christian with the most fabulous Christmases concocted by my parents, and then being a Buddhist for the last twenty-five years or so – things can get muddled up. I even did the Kwanza thing for a little while, but that I found that it wasn’t for me.

I wrote a blog post some years back about celebrating holidays in general and I think I’ll repeat it here from memory because it illustrates my feelings on the subject quite well.

1. New Year. You should make resolutions and affirmations and set goals on the 1st day of every month. It helps to check in and see if some of those things have changed, or been attained, and you don’t get to beat yourself up if you haven’t followed through. Just start anew and continuously refresh yourself every month.

2. Valentine’s Day. Celebrate love – of every kind – on the 14th of every month. Why only one day of one month every year? And don’t confine yourself to commercialized commodities – the most valuable thing you can ever give to another is your time. And for that matter, celebrate Black History or as I call it Black Future Month every month. Learn something new about Black movers and shakers both past, present and future.

3. St. Patrick’s Day. Well what can I say? Wear green a lot all the time, every month and run around kissing everyone Irish you know. Ease up on the drinking thing, its stereotypical and silly and merely a cash cow for establishments that sell alcoholic beverages.

4. Easter. Celebrate your risen Lord once every month. I’m sure he’d appreciate it.

5. April Fool’s Day. Well have fun every month! Do something goofy every month and let your inner child out to play.

6. Cinco de Mayo. Get your Mexican happiness on once every month. Why not? Send out love and appreciation to Mom at least once every month. Mom’s are Mothers 24/7 so the flow of love should go accordingly.

7. Same goes for Dad’s. And if you are like me likeminded to observe Juneteenth, well get your hooray on for the Black Independence Day each and every month of the year.

8. Same goes for July 4th and and for Francophiles like me July 14th. Once or twice a month throw a BBQ or whatever for the country of your choice.

9. I can’t say much about Labor Day – snagging a three day weekend once every month might get you fired. As for “Patriot Day” – if you need a special day once a year to remember everyone who died in the twin towers then….

10. Try to get the truth out about Columbus instead of celebrating that genocidal slaver poor excuse for a mariner. CA, HI and NV have opted out, maybe you can get your state to do the same. CA celebrates Indigenous Peoples Day and South Dakota celebrates Native American’s Day. Maybe we can celebrate those two things once every month instead.

11. Halloween. Seriously. We need to dress up and have some fun at least once a month. I see nothing wrong with this.

12. Thanksgiving. Don’t get me started on this. Again truth needs to be told on how it actually was. We can still  have a day where we gather together and give thanks, but it should be based on truth and not comfortable lies. Why not give thanks for what you have in your life once every month?

13. Black Friday and Cyber Monday. Puhleeze. I know spending is great for the economy but goodness me! There are bargains to be had all throughout the year. Find them and don’t confine yourself to killing yourself at Walmart once a year.

14. Christmas, Hannukah, Kwanza etc. Celebrate those themes of family, renewal, kindness, peace, giving and love at least once a month. Keep those warm and fuzzy feelings going all. throughout. the. year.

And if I missed any holidays or observances close to your heart, then ok, but I think you get what I’m saying. Don’t let things be confined to just one day. If you are going to celebrate and observe: do it alla dang time!.


Be With You.

And Also.

With You.

Every Day.

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Merry Winter Solstice Everyone!

I’m excited and happy that I’m alive to welcome the beginning of the next Baktun, the next 5,125 years cycle of the Mayan Long Count Calendar:

The Fifth Sun Cycle.

Many non-Mayans have believed – and cashed in on to be perfectly honest – that December 21st, 2012 is the end of the Mayan Long Count Calendar. Since Mayan calendars are all wheels or circles, there is no beginning and there is no end as we usually perceive such things – there are nesting circles and spirals and as one era or count “ends” it simply rolls into the beginning of the next count cycle.

Let us be absolutely clear that the Maya tell us their calendar does not end on 21 December 2012.  Rather, a long Mayan calendar cycle of just over 5,125 years finishes, and on the next day a new great cycle of 5,125 years begins.  If you are interested in the fine details, this 5,125 year cycle is equal to the following Mayan units of time: 13 Baktuns, or 260 Katuns, or 5200 Tuns, or 1,872,000 Kin (days).

The breathtakingly harmonic calendar works as wheels within wheels within wheels that keep turning.   The great cycle ending on Winter Solstice 2012 began in 3,114 BC and is called the Fourth Sun by the Maya.   There were three Suns before the Fourth Sun and there is another one coming…the Fifth Sun.

To get more specific, the Fourth Sun actually ended on 16 August 1987, a day marked by the worldwide ceremonial event known as Harmonic Convergence, and we have been in a sort-of 25 year gestation period leading up the Fifth Sun.  On 21 December 2012 we finish this transition period and on 22 December the Fifth Sun is born, a new 5,125 year era that will be governed by a balance of male and female energies.  The Fourth Sun was governed by male energy.” (source)

I know not everyone is as space-happy and starbound as I am, but with my twin obsessions interests of space and anthropology, I for one cannot deny the spiritual and scientific import of the documentation of space-time from these fiercely accurate time-keepers. I’ve ever been open to world views and quests of the spirit from those that came before us. Never do I dismiss what they have to say simply because they did come before and are “ancient” in our linear perception of time. Back in the day, I celebrated the Harmonic Convergence in my own way, and I intend to celebrate this particular solstice in like fashion.

I decided nearly a year ago on New Year’s eve that I would turn on and tune myself during 2012 towards listening and understanding and making sure that I keep myself open to all the possibilities that this new era could bring. Quantum Physics have already touched on the power of human mind and thought and shown us that much of what IS exists due to the interaction, focus and attention of human perception.

I choose to be a part of the endless spinning of planets, galaxies and stars. We are indeed stardust and I try to remind myself of that everyday. That there could be hope for balance, for truth and Awakening in the dawn of this new era brings me comfort and peace.

To at least make the effort to align myself, my pure self, my essence my Spirit, my inner energy with the advent of a chance to renew, to regain, to come home, to settle, to instill within myself the strength of cosmic distance and the intimacy of space and time – well that makes my heart sing and makes diamonds out the tears I’ve shed for us on this little blue-green marble.

I will take my few moments and joyfully greet the sun as it rises tomorrow. I will pace the frigid dust of this desert and give gratitude and thanks as I breath in the crisp Winter air on that morning. I will dance in my own way on the next day on the Birth Day, on the first day of the Fifth Sun Cycle.

“…the arrival of the Fifth Sun will not be an “Aha” moment and that changes will be gradual.  After 21 December 2012 four periods of thirteen years each through which we will grow into the Fifth Sun.

We will have thirteen years of infancy in our new way of being on the Earth (2012 to 2025), followed by 13 years of toddler-ship where we are just learning how to walk (2025 to 2038).

Then we will have 13 years of adolescence (2038 to 2051) followed by 13 years of young adulthood (2051 to 2064), and then we will have matured into our new way of living in harmony.” (source)

I would love to be alive to experience all of those footsteps along the pathway to fully realizing the potential of the Fifth Sun. I’m realistic about my health and the personal choices I make, and some key elements of those don’t add up to me living to the ripe old age of 96. However, I could make some key changes that would lead me to extending my life, and who knows that the future might bring. Our children and their children will be here to experience all of these things and I give Blessings to us All that we might see and live as much as we each possibly can.

As you hold your family tight and celebrate the joys of this special time of year, send out a thought, a prayer – take a moment from the hectic speed of days – and capture even just a little part of the heavenly harmonics that will sustain you and yours well into this New Baktun, this Happy New Era this exciting new age of Balance, Birth and Potential.

Understand that while there might be barriers like the speed of sound the speed of light to us touching the farther reaches of our galaxy and our universe, there is nothing that blocks the way and the velocity of the speed and power of thought and prayer.

When the light of Earth’s star bathes my face and tickles my smile I will send my thoughts my prayers to you and may you feel them and bathe in them like the warm rays of Sol and know that I am thinking of you and love you and that I share with you my Joy, Hope and Happiness for our future.



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Stop The Killing

When I see stats like these:

45 Palestinians dead; 3 Israelis dead.

I have to wonder at the obvious imbalance of it all.

The Buddhist and Quaker in me is mortally offended at any war at all, and my compassion for the injured dead and dying on all sides hurts me to the bone.


I knew that there would come a time when our hand-in-glove relationship with Israel would have to come up on a reckoning.

Shame on you President Obama with your backing of “right to defend” nonsense. You know good and damn well Israel “defends” itself by being the aggressor and raining down death on Gaza.

But I guess you are used to that what with all your drones you got going on.


Where is the United Nations? What about Human Rights?

Are we just to stand by and watch people kill each other? How are we “civilized” nations that we cannot deal with our problems in any other way?

“The United States has given us full backing to take whatever measures are necessary to defend our citizens against Hamas terror.”

Thank you Michael Oren. Yet another reason for me to be embarrassed to be a US Citizen.

In early 2009, a ground war in Gaza left some 1,400 Palestinians dead, the vast majority civilians, in a conflict that was similarly intended to stop rockets from being fired from the region. Thirteen Israelis were also killed.

Again, I hate to bring up numbers but LOOK AT THAT!! What on The Good Green Earth do think is going to happen if there is a continuation and a repeat of hostilities?


Somebody has to do something. I am brought to mind the picture of that lone Chinese man standing in front of those tanks. Enough is enough. What is it going to take?

I leave you with this statement because maybe my words have little weight. Who am I but an ordinary human being who simply wants the killing to stop?


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Peace On Earth by Kathleen Scarboro

My birthday wish in these wild and crazy times

Is simply to have everyone I know

And everyone I meet

Take just one thing – Peace – and see how they can create MORE

Of it within their own lives and in the lives of

Everyone they know

And everyone they meet.

Maybe it will grow and spread and change lives

Like that movie Pay It Forward touched so many people

And made people realize

That it is up to us – individuals – to lessen the Hate

Eradicate the prejudice, and for the sake of

All our souls – end the killing and work towards rebuild.

If I could have my wish this year

I would wage Peace on each and every one of you

Peace of mind, Peace of spirit, Peace of heart and soul

Peace in the true sense of the word

A dignity for life on this planet and our responsibility

To know what the right thing to do is

And to do it.

My birthday wish is for Kindness, Compassion and Respect

To be the way we treat each other

Peace be with you

And also with you.

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Go Lia Go!

The fantabulous Lia Neal gettin her game face ON! She has swam her way to London making her the second African-American female swimmer to make it to the Olympics like EVAR. You GO Girl!

I can’t remember the last time I was in a pool but hey I’ve got swimming ribbons, medals and trophies from when I was in the 5 years old and under age group all the way to high school (when I quit swimming competitively for good after freshman year). I even had a Michael Phelpsian type breakdown before eventually going on to win a place on the Kenyan National Swim Team. That is one of the things I’ve done in my life that I’m the most proudest of. As an expat you not only had to have the best time, but you had to beat out the national contender in your age group by a mile in order to be chosen. Hard thing to do, but I did that amazing thing when I was barely 13 years old!

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For Doover

This is a lecture by the late Dr. Ivan Van Sertima called Civilizations before Greece and Rome. It is structured in about 11 parts on youtube, so turning on your autoplay is recommended. I post this here for my brother for the following reasons – fleshed out below the vid player.

Doover, like myself and many others have been struggling with trying to reconcile what our brains and common sense have been telling us with what we have been fed by various sources – media, so-called scientific and anthropological experts, historians etc – struggling with who were the ancient Egyptians, the pyramid builders and what did they look like and where did they come from. Especially with the recent King Tut DNA and face reconstruction drama.

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While my computer (Old Betsy III) was down for the count for awhile, I had plenty of time to think about a subject that has been curling around my brain and my heart for all of my life and becoming increasingly to the forefront these days.


And what the heck are we gonna do about it.

As soon as I was able to Netflix again, I treated myself to a lecture from His Holiness the Dalai Lama called Compassion in Emptiness. While I am a Buddhist, I’m not a Tibetan Buddhist, but when the Dalai Lama throws down, I’m always there to listen. I always learn something.

Interestingly enough, this teaching he gave was about how to maintain compassion and achieve inner (and outer!) peace in these modern times. (I believe this was filmed during a 3-day symposium somewhere in New York back in 2011.) I was struck dumb when here was this religious leader talking – with some urgency – about how the secular path was the way to go for us to achieve peace in our time and to ease conflict with dialogue. He was very clear about why he was saying secular instead of the religious path.

You see if we try to have a sit down with people (or someone) from differing faiths, it takes a whole lot of effort and sometimes drama to even get to the starting point of having a dialogue – sometimes never – due to the conflicts that arise – already proven my dears – between differing religions.

So instead if we go the secular route – seeking dialogue, and end to conflict, an achievement of peace outside the realm of religion – we have much better opportunities for success.

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I’ve always been a feminist. I had to. I was the only girl with three male siblings. I was rocking the Girl Power thing before it was hip and cool and mainstream. So I have a very acute “spider sense” when it comes to discovering all things misogynistic in the world I live in. Right now, sorry to say that particular world is physically narrow – meaning I don’t go anywhere, don’t do nothin – but on the flip side my mental world has several expansive outlets. Books and Film mostly right now. For this article, I’ll stick primarily to movies and TV shows.

First let me set the scene. Little things add up to a lot. That’s why I can’t dismiss the little things. Those are actually the things that set my spider sense tingling the most actually. They are the gateway to things most horrible and wrong. Some of you might laugh at some of the next things I’m going to say – maybe dismiss them as the rantings of some rabid feminazi or whatever that word is. A word I find rather distasteful to put it mildly. When we fight for the lives of our daughters, sisters, and mothers and dare to raise our voices and our opinions we automatically become fascist genocidal dictatorial jack booters? Donne moi une Grande BREAK s’il vous plait, ok?

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My Whitney

Casualty of America
I Will Always Love You

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And in my heart to be sure. She died way before her time 6 years ago this coming Friday, February 24th. Octavia E. Butler is who I aspire to be like. To have my heart and soul on pages and have them duly and often awarded. But there is only one Octavia and I must find my own way to be the writer I want to be. I can and continue to use her works as my inspiration and of course for the pure unadulterated JOY that comes over me when I curl up with one of her books.

This is the first time I have been able to write and even think coherently about her passing. It all seemed like such a senseless and wierd way for the First Lady of SciFi (IMO) to end her days. And all way way too soon. There has been a hole in my heart for these past six years, and well since I don’t get the luxury of being able to grieve as I should be able to – Teh Bipolar can kick in if I give way to strong emotions ok – I’ve never really said my goodbyes. I guess this blog post will have to do.


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This is my jam right now

Thanks Northern Cree!


When we did the round dance
You were smilin
To the end of that sweet song
Just like birds were singing
In my mind the whole time

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Truthsense is a word and a concept I got from one of Orson Scott Card‘s novels. It gave me a name for that feeling when I know, absolutely know that something is Right and True. I think we all have that Truthsense inside of us. That moment when things just click together and a big neon sign lights up in your mind with the words: Yep, Dat Iz Da True.


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About February

About February

Black History Month

Gemstone: Amethyst


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We sometimes forget that the March on Washington (1963) culminating in Martin Luther King Jr.’s speech,was primarily about economic equality. Civil rights and freedoms yes, but what good is freedom when you can’t put food on the table?

So I ponder these things today and wonder (like I always do) if my Birth Mother was there on that historic day.


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